*sigh* What am I even doing now?

Oh my god, I seriously don't know what I'm even doing anymore. I mean, I feel like I'm behind on everything, and I feel like its fucking up my writing stuff. I missed that online session too because I didn't even know it was going on, but oh well, that's life for me. I feel so stressed out now. But, here's what I can say though about that essay draft... My state of it is kinda messy right now, so if you agreed to look at the essay, give me some more time please. I'm sorry its taking so long for me, but It's been a rough last few days for me, and you probably already know why. But I can say this: my essay is slowly coming together. Hopefully by the end of today there will be another entry on here, and those pages should be sent out. Jamie, Megan, I'm sending you two the pages, and I appreciate the slack you two are cutting me because of the stress I'm dealing with. I'll send you two the pages. Thanks for all the support I'm receiving from everybody, your help is what has kept me going lately. -Jake

2 Sources so far, but what about the 3rd?

Ugh, I can't think of a freaking third source, and it's driving me crazy! I have to have 3 separate sources for this new essay, and I can't think of a third source, and it has to be one of my own choice.

So far, I plan to use a small amount of the Blogging book, and I plan to use a decent amount of that article that Kathleen West wrote on her research on her students in her English Class. I think that I can compare to the idea that the blogs of the students show a great deal of their identity in their blogs. But, I still can't think of where I can find another place to get information off of, and its pissing me off. I don't know what to do, and I have an annotated bibliography that is due in the morning with ALL 3 SOURCES ON IT! I have the first 2 done, but I still can't find another. I'm suffering from writer's block, and im overwhelmed. I'm screwed...

No Changes. Yet.

The essay changed. Now we have two more options to choose from for prompts for our essays for writing. However, I don't like either of them. Neither of the other two sound like I can compare to them at all. I still think that Prompt #1 is the most relevant and easier for me to connect to.

This blog itself is what I plan to think about when it comes to this next essay. I think that I have put so much of myself into these entries without thinking about it, that I have basically made the prompt easier on me that is coming up. I can't really explain why, but I just know it. I've got a feeling about it, and usually my feelings turn out to be at least a little accurate.

I have no idea if this essay prompt I plan to use will work out in the end (I only just really started this), but you never know if my shrewd ideas will change. I guess I'll find out later on...

No Words Left to Express

*sigh*

Sorry that it took so long for me to write this out, I had a rough weekend and didn't have much time to write this out for class. Its a long story.

I was able to read that article, well, I at least read the most of it, and it was an interesting read. I'm surprised about how this experiment that this teacher tried out with her students worked out with the blogging, and I have to say that it seems like it works well for her class. I have to say, I like the idea of letting the students go ahead and be themselves online when it comes to these blogs that they were supposed to do, and its interesting to me.

Interesting. That's all I can really say about the article. I mean, I have my ups and downs about this, and I don't know what I can say. I guess I can try and explain in class, but please don't expect much out of me, I'm still bothered by what went down over the weekend...

Mental Dumping of My Thoughts on Essays

Let me just get straight to the point: I honestly cannot stand writing. I can't stand them. And I always have been that way, there's no changing my views on them. I struggle with writing all the time, mainly because I have difficulty putting my thoughts that I want to write onto paper into text. And this paper was no different.

I'm relieved that this essay is finally finished. This stressed me out big time. I really don't know how I managed to get this essay finished in the first place. But it's done, and I'm happy about that. When I first did my original draft I didn't feel like I had a thesis to it, or even a point. I think I kind of just rambled on and on about nothing. I tend to do that whenever there's a page minimum and I don't know where to start on it. When we did those powerpoint presentations, this changed somewhat. After lots of thinking and arguing with myself, I finally managed to find a freaking thesis and point to my paper about that travel blogger, which lifted a large chunk of burden off my shoulders. But, I then compared my powerpoint to my draft of my paper, and holy crap, they were almost completely opposite! That pissed me off a lot, because then I knew I had to redo almost the whole damn paper. Honestly, the draft was really messed up. However, I had some paragraphs which supported my overall thesis already there in the paper, so I started by rewriting the entire introduction to my research paper, then reorganized the rest of it, deleted 4 paragraphs, and replaced them.

The finished result that I call my "Essay" was soooo much better than I was expecting. I say that because I suck at writing papers like this, and I was expecting much less than I was capable of. But at least this damn paper is over with. Now I'm just concerned about the next essay prompt, and I hope that this next one isn't too difficult for me. What's considered "Easy" to others is usally "Hard" for me personally.

Presentation: Done, but wasn't supposed to do it that early.

And I think that thought from my title has a point to it. I did my presentation powerpoint in class, but I was not scheduled for Tuesday. I instead offered to go in somebody's place because she wasn't ready yet. I think I honestly did better than I thought I would.

Now, I can say this: my powerpoint was nowhere near the idea of 'perfect'. I considered it sloppy, and I believe that it could have been a hell of a lot better, but I had no damn time to work on it. I've been so damn busy lately that I feel like deadlines are starting to get to me. I feel overwhelmed and screwed.

I looked at the feedback that I received, and I understand what you guys wrote for me, but almost all of it was the same. "Narrow your thesis", "Too much text in powerpoint", "You rambled on quite a bit".

Ugh, I know that my presentation was a piece of junk! But just remember that I had no time to work on preparing. When I first wrote out that powerpoint, I honestly was just writing out my thoughts straight onto the pages so that there was something there. I could easily have done the presentation without the visual background and have done the exact same as I did on Tuesday.

*sigh* Oh well, the point is, my paper is looking a tad bit better, and hopefully by Wednesday it looks a lot better, and that my thesis is the same on paper as it is in my mind. I know what I want to say, its just that whole damn thing about me not being able to copy out my thoughts legibly into a piece of literature, like my essay. Once again, wish me luck, I know I'm gonna need it...

No point seen in putting a title up if one doesn't make sense.

And that's my point of my blog entry. Haha, not.

I've been thinking about how I could possibly incorporate Blogging into my essay, and believe me, its very confusing. I have had a lot of difficulty trying to figure out what I could possibly put into this essay draft, and what I came up with is that Gary Arndt's blog, Everything Everywhere, has more of a personal yet informative blog style. I think of this, because Arndt has multiple perspectives that are shown everytime you look at his blog. But I think I can narrow it down to at least two styles, which are informative and personal. Just thinking of this actually helps me out a decent amount, because my essay needs quite a bit of work, especially on my thesis, which is finding out what exactly is Gary Arndt trying to do with his blog.

I think that this will help out a decent amount with my revising, maybe I ought to get to work on it.
Wish me luck guys, I'm gonna need it.